50,000 Words!!!

Today, just a few moments ago in fact, I completed NaNoWriMo for the first time! I reached 50k, printed out my nifty winners certificate and now I’m writing this blog post. 😀 I’m so excited that I finished before the month is over, because my story has a ways to go before it’s finished and I am really looking forward to taking these last few days a bit slower, but also trying to write as many words as I can and finish my novel.

Once I finish my novel I am looking forward to a bit of a break from writing, but not a long one, I have many more ideas rolling around my brain that need written down and possibly expanded upon. This December is going to be filled with a lot of holiday preparation, but also some research for my novel. I need to research Canada, Ireland, the UK, Scotland, and German names and culture to name a few. I will also possibly look into turning my novel into a fantasy novel complete with it’s own history, map, and lore. If I do that I think it will resemble German folklore and such, which I will also have to research. 🙂

Ahh!! I’m so excited for the next step in my first novel’s journey.

Also… Happy Belated Thanksgiving! I didn’t write a blog post on Thanksgiving (or yesterday) because I was busy spending time with my family and writing my book.

The Point

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I am a complete and utter mess of a human being.

I hope some of you can sympathize.

I am plagued by my emotions and the scary thoughts that run rampant in my brain. I’m plagued by fear of what people think. I am overrun by the way I feel. I feel hurt so often that I’ve begun to push away, emotionally, from those who have hurt me in the past. I begin to see them as so two-dementional. I know that there is more to them then that, but I don’t really feel like trying to figure them out. I keep an open mind towards them. I love them, I do, but I love them cynically.

Sometimes it seems like there is no point in loving others when all they give back is indifference. I often think I am so done dealing with them. I push them away. I push love away. I push God away.

I guess that’s when I realized, just today, that life is so much bigger than me and my stupid experiences. My feelings aren’t always valid as I’d like to believe. My thoughts and conclusions are ridden with errors. Yes, I’m a mess, and when I realize this I realize that there is a point to love. There is a big point.

Jesus loves us.

Yes, I know, it sounds cheesy. What I’ve realized is that some of the most cheesy things in life are sometimes the truest things.

Jesus does love all of us, and if we follow Him, we make it our business to love Him and others as he loved us. Jesus is the perfect example of grace and love. He is the point to all the pointlessness in the world. He is the savior of the lost and the hope for the hopeless.

I’m done living thinking that love has not point, because love does have a point. A very big point.

Things That Keep Me Sane

I have been writing a novel for the past few weeks. It is hard work to keep on top of things and make sure I get my to my goal of 1,667 words a day. I have woken up early and I have gone to bed late to get in a few extra words. I have spent hours that should have been spent on school, on writing, and I have been sitting at my keyboard literally falling asleep while writing.

Seriously though…

It’s so much fun. I’m not even exaggerating. It is one of the most fun things I have ever had the opportunity to do. It’s day twenty and I’m still having fun. It’s so strange, because I was sure that I would have burnt myself out by now. I was sure that I would have run out of ideas or at least fallen very behind.

I have learned a lot over the past few week, but the biggest lesson I’ve learned is that I’m a much more capable writer that I thought I was. I thought I was a pretender of a writer who wasn’t able to write anything more than a few lines a day. I have proven myself wrong and that’s the best feeling ever.

One of the reasons I’ve been able to write so well this month is because of all the crazy amazing writing resources I’ve been using. I’ve collected a few essential resources that I use everyday (or nearly everyday) while writing. These are the things that have kept me sane during this project. 🙂

  • Music – I have a YouTube playlist here where I put all of the music that reminds me of the various themes and emotions that I wish to infuse my novel with.
  • Sound – No, this isn’t the same thing as my last point. When I don’t want music, but I wish to listen to something, I simply go to mynoiseA great site with a lot great sound generators that block sound tremendously.
  • Writing – When I write I don’t use google docs, Word, or even Scrivener. I use a site called Writer. It really cuts down on distractions for me and the green on black theme hurts my eyes less than staring at a bright white screen. However, I do have my manuscript saved and divided up into chapters in Scrivener. 🙂 I think I’ll be using that more during the editing process.
  • Break time  – When I take a break from writing there are two places I go; books (The Two Towers) or YouTube. Over the past few weeks/days I’ve been watching a lot of Good Mythical Morning and this super cool channel that I just discovered called Super Carlin Brothers. They are pretty cool and talk about everything Disney, Harry Potter, Star Wars, and more. It’s awesome. 🙂

Happy NaNoWriMo day 20!!

A New Goal

It is NaNoWriMo day 17. My word count is 28,401. 🙂 I’m very excited about that, but…

But… I’m pretty sure my novel isn’t going to be over by the time I reach 50,000 words, but I really want my novel to be finished by the end of this month. So, I have a new goal. Yes, I am still going to try and write 50,000 words this month, but now there is a twist to that plan. I want to write at least 50,000 words this month. Yes, it is a great feat but I’m pretty sure I can do it. Well, not pretty sure, but kinda sure. Anyways, even if I wasn’t sure at all that I could do it I would try to do it.

Happy 17th of November everyone!

25,000 Words

Today I hit 25,000 words on my novel for NaNo. 🙂 I’m still so pumped to be doing this. I’m halfway through and my excitement for this whole process has yet to fade. I think it’s a good sign. My momentum is still going strong. I have lots of ideas and many of them I’m going to use in the near future.

One problem is that I’m not sure that my novel has enough for it to become a full length novel. My plot is pretty simple and I’ve gotten to 25k without really adding to this basic plot. I guess it’s time to mix things up a bit. 🙂 Other times, however, I know for sure that my novel is going to be way over 50,000 words. lol

I’ve realized over the past week and a half of doing NaNoWriMo that, while I could do NaNo without interacting with any other writers or getting involved in anything, it is a lot more fun to at least try and get involved with the many other writers on the NaNo website. It’s also really fun to participate in the biweekly virtual write-ins that NaNoWriMo hosts on YouTube. Write-ins are a few of my favorite parts of the week. I love the word sprints, the discussions, and the general atmosphere of writerly-ness that I find there. 🙂

While most of my attention is focused on NaNo I have found that stepping away from my computer and relaxing is very important. It’s almost as important as writing itself, for me at least. When I am constantly staring at the screen I end up with a bad headache and that weird feeling in my eyes when I’ve stared at the computer too much (I feel it right now actually).

So, I’ve been taking a lot of breaks, both from writing and from staring at the computer screen. I watch/listen to a lot of Good Mythical Morning. I listen to Owl City. I listen to a lot of Coldplay. I listen to a lot of Dodie Clark’s music. 🙂 I read a little. I knit a little. I play my ukulele a lot. I drink a lot of tea. I try not to waste time a lot, but end up wasting a lot of time. It’s funny how that works. 🙂

Anyways, that’s life right now and I’m enjoying it.

Here I Am

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Okay, here I am. It is November 12, 2016. I don’t know what I want to talk about today, mostly because I have a novel that is waiting to be written and nearly all of my energy is focused on that. However, some of my energy has also been focused on my knitting, my friends, my family, devotions every morning, and living life. It’s been great. Life is great.

Winter has come, nearly. I don’t believe that winter really begins until the snow comes, before then the world is just a brown place that is occasionally covered in white frost, like the world is preparing itself for winter. It is cold out, only about 25 degrees, but the grass is still green and there are still leaves clinging to the trees. The world is not completely dead. 🙂

Today is nanowrimo, day twelve, but for me it’s only day nine since I began last Friday. I was caught up in my word count for a blessed two days, but now I’m about 3,500 words behind. Yeah. I have a lot of catching up to do, but I’m not too worried about it. I haven’t “hit the wall” yet, because I keep finding more things to write about and I have lots of ideas for my book. 🙂 I’m so excited for the rest of the month and so glad I decided to do nanowrimo. I have a Pinterest board for my book, click here for the link to that.

I’m attempting to knit a blanket because I thought, “I am so bored (sarcasm) and have nothing to do (more sarcasm), why don’t I add one more thing to my to-do list.” It’s very relaxing to be knitting again and it has encouraged me to read a bit more. My reading has fallen to the wayside over the past week. 😦 I’m very sad about that. The Two Towers is such a good book (and I’m also reading The Silmarilion) that I wish I had more time for it, but every day is so jam packed with things to do that I can’t seem to find the time. Oh well, hopefully I’ll read a bit more now that I have something to work on while I do it.

That is a snippet of my life right now. It’s busy and happy and good. I’m very excited for the future and my writing and my reading and my life. 🙂

13,413 Words

Today I wrote about 2,300 words of my novel. It feels good to write so much everyday, but the good news is that, from here on out (hopefully) I am on target for NaNo! I caught up to today’s wordcount goal (13,330) and surpassed it a bit. So, I’m happy.

NaNoWriMo is really hard. I’m finding that I have a headache a lot, because I am looking at my computer screen so much. However, it isn’t nearly as bad as I thought it would be. I’m finding that the words are coming easier than I expected. Of course, I do have an outline (which I haven’t looked at since I made it), so that does help a bit. At least I know where I’m going. Doing NaNo, actually following one of the biggest dreams I’ve had as a writer, is really rewarding so far. I’m living the dream. 🙂

In other news, there really isn’t any. My life is NaNo right now. Even when I’m not writing, the thought of what I need to write, my world, my characters, the problems… they are all still there. And I love it, despite the headaches, literal and figurative. 😛

Very Excited

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On Friday, November 4 I started NaNoWriMo… four days late! I don’t exactly know what made me take on such a crazy, ridiculous challenge, but I did it. I started NaNo and I’m so glad I did. Even though I’m about 3,000 words behind schedule, that’s okay! I’m glad I decided to do it, because I’m really enjoying it so far.

Of course, it’s only day six (and it’s really only my third day), I’m still on a roll. I haven’t come across any road blocks or backed-up traffic. I’m speeding down the highway of my novel still. However, it’s only day six and I’m only on chapter four. Anything could happen between now and November 30 that could put me behind schedule permanently.

Still, even though I’m a bit unsure of where I’m going or where I’ll be, I’m excited and happy. 🙂 I’m living the dream right now. I’ve wanted to do NaNoWriMo for so long. So to actually be sitting down and attempting to write a novel in a month is pretty surreal still.

I’m looking forward to late nights and early mornings of tapping frantically on my computer, writing nonsense because I have to write something. I’m looking forward to many cups of tea, possible write-ins, and many word sprints. I’m looking forward to January and February when I’ll be (hopefully) editing and all that fun stuff. Ahhh!! I am so excited!!

Dreams and Reality

The sun was rising in the clean, blue sky over the colorful hills behind my neighborhood. A very busy day was about to begin, but I wanted to take a moment to breathe. It was 65 degrees (Fahrenheit) outside, the sun was shining, and the colors of fall were about to fade. I took care to notice each different color on the leaves of the neighborhood trees, but I found the colorful hills in the distance far more alluring.

I wanted to go there. I wanted to throw off the tethers of what I was supposed to do and go on an adventure. Thinking about running across the bare cornfield and finding myself at the base of those hills made me tingle with longing. The only thing standing in my way was reality. Thinking about getting into the van and going to co-op for another day where I wouldn’t get much school done made me want to stay home, but I went because I had to.

My dreams are big and bold and beautiful to me. I love to imagine all their most intricate details and make up an alternate reality in my head. It’s easy to get lost in there.

Reality is clear-cut, but oddly uncertain, and a lot of work. It’s a lot of hard work, but  the rewards of working hard make up for it.

I wouldn’t want to live forever in my dreamland where nothing ever gets accomplished, but I don’t want to get so bogged down by reality that I have no dreams. I always want to have dreams, even when I’m old. It’s all a matter of weaving dreams into reality and trying to make them possible. I try to remember this when I’m thinking about my own dream of becoming a freelancing, tiny-houser on a farm. 🙂 It’s a big dream, but I’m always striving to make it possible.